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Monthly Archives: July 2009

I’m going to pray once for spirit to bring money and a job into my life. I deserve this. I don’t deserve to be “crazy” knowing such intense truths. If my spirit can do these two things then I will submit. Otherwise, I’m ready to give up on the mayan teachings and just be normal. I’m tired of the crazy things that have happened to me and what I memorize about. I still wonder who those people are that knew me. Why did they lie and say I was god? Why did they lie and say I was enlightened? What does god mean? What does enlightened mean? I feel helpless and borderline until I have money and a job.


White Mirror represents your Challenge and Gift. With maturity and awareness this challenge will turn into a Focus. This is what you desire to learn in this lifetime.

Have you unconsciously created a reality in which you seem lost or confused? In this shadow, you may feel enmeshed in the illusions of the hall of mirrors. Remember that the only real power the hall of mirrors has is your belief that its grand illusions are real! On Earth, we presently live on a holographic playing field made of the elements of time and space. This field draws to itself the density and mass necessary to form a three-dimensional reality. All phenomena within it are images that appear for our learning and growth. Since each of us is a hologram of light within the larger hologram, getting lost in fear, judgement, and denial can certainly appear to be “real”, but it is really only an illusion. The essential mind is silent, still, empty – hence, incapable of getting lost.

The transformation offered in this shadow is found by being mindful. Meditate and pray for the reestablishment of your direct connection to Spirit. Become quiet and still. Imagine yourself floating timelessly in the center of the star-glyph White Mirror, receiving divine wisdom. Cut away with clear discrimination. Forgive and release yourself and others. Enter into the timeless truth of the spiritual warrior.

Another shadow transformation of White Mirror may be found in seeing yourself clearly in the mirrors of the world and other people. Using others as mirrors allows you to experience hidden truths about yourself. Ask for honest feedback from friends you trust. Risk hearing the truth about yourself. Openly observe the events in your life to see how they can be used to better understand who you actually are.

One of the most self-limiting illusions is the belief that one’s own view of reality is the only one. This often causes the mirror of the world to reflect back to you your “unseen” shadow, and when you see this shadow, it can produce a judgement or reaction. Such emotionally charged situations usually have two poles or positions. When you believe that only you are right, both poles remain charged and fixed. For a moment, experiment with letting go or changing your position. As you loosen your hold and step aside, the “other position” or person is freed to change as well.

Understand that judgement and acceptance are two sides of the same mirror – the transparent mirror of ascension.

Love is really an intense feeling of satisfaction with your life and provides meaning to your purpose here.

Love is indestructible liberation of the soul.

When you find love, it feels familiar, like you know exactly what’s missing from you. Love finally shows you the reflection of your mirror.

I found the cutiest, hottest guy I could imagine. I never felt this feeling before. I can actually believe in gay marriage now. It’s funny how I was asked about gay marriage on the bus home tonight. I think this boy could be a gift to know intimately without limits. I wish he would marry pedro and me and be the third in our relationship. Alternatively, he gives me good reason to get my shit together.

aha! I know whats happening to me. I’m at beginners mind. Truly am. Time to live and thrive.

 Your Tone is Tone 5 – Overtone

Core purpose, central intent, foundation, place of centeredness, simplicity, acceptance of your humanness.

Five is the ray of center, the first bar, the foundation of humanity in the individual self. Step into the center of your crystalline core. What do you find there? What is your foundation, your core purpose, your central intent, your individual vision? Use this vision as an access to the truth at your stellar core. See yourself as an ever-expanding hub of truth and light.

You are the center of your own universe! Remember that there is great wisdom to be found within the human form. In genuine acceptance of your humanness, you find your foundation in individual self. Turn inward and bring more light into your form. Discover the foundation of your sacred center. In meditation, receive the serenity of the unis mundi, the place of perfect centeredness. In letting go of who you think you are, you become who you actually are. Be simple. You are always sitting in the center. You are the Zen master, centered in beginner’s mind.

Im going to my first job interview since the storm is over today. Going to shine so i can earn some money.

it’s really hard to just be me when my body still vibrates, i see flashing lights and i still can decode personalities without knowing people, just the name. I’m testing the waters… living between two worlds….

I know  I reached my potential because my life made me so high, now I am coming down arching back into the reality that I ascended from. My next goal is to learn how to just BE myself. I know where the path home is now and I written my first step.

The Serenity Prayer
Path God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Finally the storm is over! My god that was such a storm.